Summer so far…

I haven’t posted on my tumblr for a while. I’ve been getting home mad late these days and my mom threatened to take my car keys :O In jersey you can’t go or do anything without a car… This summer is quiet relaxing! I just need to find a job and make some dough. Today as I was driving I threw away my bogies hoping to quit now. The thing that scares me the most is $10 in my wallet and another day to come and see if I can resist. I’m trying my best to do other things so my mind can be somewhere else besides thinking of bogies. I’ve been watching “We Got Married” and like holy crap it makes me feel lonely. This is mad gay and I don’t want to sound desperate but seeing couples or watching dramas with relationships makes me a little lonely. Sometimes I really think if everyone has a perfect someone that comes in their life and has a great meaning in a future relationship. I’ve learned some things as life went by. Don’t try to rush things in a relationship… If you truly like or love that special someone, he or she isn’t going anywhere. Take your time and have fun! Even before going into a relationship, think wisely. For myself I often wonder hmmm, am I going to have a special future with this someone or is it just going to be the honeymoon stage of a relationship and then once problems come in, things just fall apart.

What I look in girls… Hmmm. First of all, she must must must must be Christian. I would want this special someone to be with me on the walk with God. I want her to be by my side while we take the journey that God has provided us. Even through hard times she can help me, cheer me up, or even just give me a big hug. I also like her to be cute and pretty with smarts. People say yea but you know the most important thing that matters about is the inside of a person… Yea I know but I want to show to all my friends and to anyone how my girl can be the best. Over the past years I learned a lot of things in a relationship. I learned that I should really think about it. Don’t rush things too fast. Take some time and really care for that person if I like her. If you think you did your all and best, it’s not true. The things I would try to do for a girl in a relationship would be never ending. Over all, I learned a lot of things as I grew up and to do my best not to mess up again. 

It got pretty late so done with this post and off to sleep.

What the!

I can’t believe the Lakers just lost another game to the Suns… Is this happening? Well I think the Lakers are just trying to give Suns a chance… Hopefully, but cmon Sun’s benched players had a total of 54 points… Next games at LA so Lakers better get there head straight and win the next 2. I do give props to the Suns though. Steve Nash with like a mutated face haha. BUT Kobe Bryant, holy crap! You better get your game on! If you guys lose and don’t make it to the finals… I shall root for a new team starting next year… Don’t disappoint me guys! Let’s go Los Angeles Lakers, 2010 NBA Playoff Champs!

Nothing to do… Bored at home. Anyone have ideas on what to do?

Hooked on Tumblr!

Haha so I just came home after Phil’s birthday! Wang galbi, soju, and beer are great! Yummy in the tummy. I wasn’t going to post a blog BUT I want to be consistent with this. Hmmm, so today I watched IRON MAN 2 with Sarah and Thong boy… It was pretty good! Today was like a stress reliever and I got to play and have some fun. I wish my summer was like this everyday, but how can it be? Gotta write a resume and cover letter to hand in for a job. I realized that it’s not gonna always be like this in the future. With the time I have now why don’t I have fun AND do some work. Hopefully this summer is filled with good surprises and definitely basketball!

Not Again! >:(

I woke up this morning ready to go work at my dad’s company at Long Island City. Just as I was about to take a nap in the car, my mom said she needs to talk to me. Every Time she says she needs to talk, we end up arguing and fighting. She brings up how I’m all grown up now and because of that I should go work for my parents all the time! Honestly, I would rather work for someone else then your own parents. At least to me I take working for my parents annoying. I’ve been working for them since I was young. Carrying boxes, organizing, packaging, and sometimes even going on delivery. Since I was young, my breaks were horrible. Instead of enjoying the time away from school, I’m stuck doing child labor for my parents. From lifting heavy boxes and what not, a pain in my lower back grew. Sooner or later my back hurt almost everyday and every minute. Addition to that, I don’t get paid because its “family work”. There’s nothing to do here except watch tv, go on the laptop when my dads not using it, or play with the cats. I’m allergic to cats… Anyways, going back to my point. Basically my mom was giving me a lecture of life, well my life. She always mentions this, “Just wait until you get married, and then you’ll understand what I mean.” My parents are too korean-ized. Yes we are Korean but still this is American. If I was to get married and had kids, I would treat them differently from how I’ve been treated from my parents. In return I mentioned about what happened yesterday. I asked why both of them didnt pick up their phones when I called. She said it was on vibrate all day and told me another story. She mentioned how embarrased she was one Sunday when her cellphone rang in the middle of service. She blamed ME for it because I called her! Another thing is that I waited for my parents to come home so we can have dinner together. But, noooooooooooooooooo! They already ate kalbi at goo yuhk yae bae…  Not only did the whole house smell like kalbi but I also got yelled at by my dad. I got yelled at because I can’t take care of myself and find something to eat. Ohyeah! I also found out that my dad lied to me. Besides my offering money for service, there was $50 on the bench. I usually don’t take things without permission so I called my dad wondering if it was mine. He said it was his so I didn’t touch it. My mom told me that the money was for me so that I can eat lunch and dinner. As soon as she said that, my heart just broke and collapsed. Yes I’m a guy but what the fack! I asked why he did that and my mom told me because all I do is stay home instead of helping dad out at work. First of all, I’ve been home for ONE WEEK! Secondly, so now I’m only able to eat if I work? In the end I’m working at my parents place for today and being upset. Once again while I’m typing this my mom is screaming at me. I gave up now and I just tell her that everything is my fault. All the time… I don’t know what to do anymore…

God’s Holy Day…

“This is the day the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it.”

-Psalms 118:24

Today is Sunday! Another way to put it, God’s Day. Sunday comes once every week and during this time we go to church. At church we meet friends, pray, worship, learn, and even eat. Yes, I actually went to church today. Instead of going to my parent’s church FUMC, I just visited a church nearby. I came back home thinking about so many things. Funny thing is I was thinking while smoking a bogie. It just came to me like wow… Why am I smoking? I call myself a Christian even if I still sin. God gave up his one and only son to save me, but I’m killing myself by smoking… I started to smoke because of the things that occurred in my life either because of family issues or just life in general. I came to a conclusion that I should keep myself busy so I don’t smoke. I set myself a to do list during this summer. 

1. Find a church and go every Sunday.

2. Seek for help to get back on track with my Christian life.

4. Find a job where I can make my own money and help my parents out if I can.

5. Try to be a better son, brother, and friend.

6. Play ball and workout when I’m free. (Lose weight)

7. Sleeping on time and waking up early so I don’t waste any time.

8. Be persistent in whatever I do. Don’t give up because I know Gods by my side and will keep be safe in any condition.

9. Finally, quit smoking and drink less.

During my summer, I will try to accomplish all these 9 things. I won’t give up even if things get hard. I’ll try my best to accomplish it all. Let’s do this! :)

“Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.”

- Deuteronomy 31:6